letting go = pushing away?
4.3.09
when do we really let go of something?many believe that you have officially let something go if you no longer possess feeling for it, but is that really the case? so many opportunities are lost because we conciously think that we have not yet detached ourselves, resulting in missed chances that could have altered our lives so dramatically. and when push comes to shove, we SHOVE our way past these feelings, these thoughts that occur without our permission. and does it work? if we ourselves are blocking thoughts out on purpose...doesn't that mean we have not yet left it behind?
we trick ourselves into thinking that if we still have these abundant thoughts, then OBVIOUSLY we are not ready for another similar experience. this is our way of avoiding situations, avoiding hurt without facing the fear. this is how we lose faith...but these thoughts could be lingering for a very different reason.
something to think about: maybe these feelings are not trying to tell us that we aren't ready for a new adventure...maybe they are simply reminding us of the past mistakes, and accomplishments we've been able to make. and as they are hanging there, we can refer to them, as if they are class notes as we try to concur a new experience. look at it like this; these thoughts are like a prerequisite to the next class, or the next opportunity. without them, you would not be able to pass. if you took socials 11, then forcefully pushed and shoved all that information out of your head, would you have to confidence to take history 12? probably not.
so these mysterious leftover feelings of heartache, or accomplishment...let them linger, and tackle a new journey with these side notes. you may learn a thing or two about what it really is to hold on.